Wednesday, July 16, 2014
It was last two weeks after having iftar alone. hub went to iftar with office... i was sitting on the couch and waiting for the food to slowly travel to to my digestive system. and suddenly, i could feel some kinda movement on lower side of my abdomen. i dont know how to describe, it feels like there's fish swimming inside ur tummy. then i realize, it was you my dear. thank you Allah. i am so blessed. and last week, u have identified yourself to our gynae as baby naj...mmy loves u mucho lil peanut
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
Next week saya akan jumpa Dr.Tan for 2nd time. Tecik will approx be 12-13 weeks. i am entering my 2nd trimester next week. but morning sickness getting worse. I am not complaining, im just jotting down my pregnancy journey here in case tecik got time to read this in future...just in case, for you to know i have already fallen in love with you tecik..hihihi.
i have read so many post of fb from the pregnancy mom group. some of them were really heart wrenching. yesterday, a fellow mommy to be had lost her baby. she went for monthly check up and doc said there was no heartbeat. At 11 weeks (just like me) she was doing just fine, no bleeding, no nauseating, no nothing. And she thought baby should be fine and healthy inside. but Allah has a better plan for her. Her baby will permanently be a resident in Jannah, and will be waiting for her there. And i forgot to mention here, she had waited for 7 years for her first pregnancy. Dear, friend, i pray you be strong and keep faith in Him. He works in His mysterious ways. Pasrah and redha, insyaallah you will get through this.
i just pray and hope that tecik is doing well inside. Jump, kick, scratch, do whatever you want to do child, i dont mind. even if that means i have to wake up every hour at night to pee, or having to vomit every morning or suffering with alot of heartburn...then so be it. i just want you to be a healthy baby throughout these 9 months. mommy and daddy really cant wait to meet you in november.
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Monday, July 8, 2013
mengeluh...perkara biasa bila penat, letih atau tak dapat benda yang dihajati (read: doa belum makbul lagi)
ada orang mengeluh banyak kerja di pejabat.
tapi keluhan orang yang jobless lebih teruk.
jadi siapa yang lebih layak mengeluh?
ada orang mengeluh makan banyak, bandan gemuk.
tapi ada orang mengeluh tak ada duit untuk makan.
jadi siapa yang lebih layak mengeluh?
ada orang mengeluh kena jaga parents yang dh tua.
tapi keluhan orang yang tak pernah rasa kasih saying ibu bapa lebih hiba.
jadi siapa yang lebih layak mengeluh.
ada orang mengeluh penat jaga anak.
tapi ada orang usaha berbagai cara untuk dapatkan anak.
jadi siapa lebih layak mengeluh?
dalam apa jua keadaan, kita tak layak mengeluh. cuma tarik nafas dalam2, muhasabah diri, lipat gandakan usaha, doa dan tawakal. nahhh...cubalah. hidup pasti aman, hati pasti tenang. insyaallah.
selamat menyambut ramadhan almubarak.
Monday, July 1, 2013
Would you wear pink or would you wear blue?
i ll never know
or hear your sweet coo
or see those tiny little fingers
how the thoughts of you just linger....
it was only for 4 weeks. but you'll always be remembered. i love you forever my tiny little angel.
Friday, March 1, 2013
it has been a week since i tender my resignation. the fear of not getting any job, in near future is killing me. alhamdulillah, Allah is the most merciful, one closed the door for me, but HE opens another for me.
thank you Allah.
i went for an interview yesterday, and secured the job. alhamdulillah. but i wont be doing in house legal anymore. nope, not going to practice back.
i ll be managing contract.hahaha,a contract specialist!will be reporting direct to VP project. kecut perut jugak as this is new thing for me. but lets give it a try kan...looking forward to join the company soon. my futrue boss is actually willing to pay my notice period, but i told him i only have 3 weeks left with m.mhe.
so..bye2 legal for now. i will be back insyaallah, after i gain more experience dealing with project management and contracts.
thanks to all of u, those yg pray for me. tq sayang2 semua
Monday, February 25, 2013
there is posssibility of me being jobless. i have tendered my resignation letter.
i made up my mind, not considering that i havent got any job offer yet.
one month that is, from today. i am not sure i am gonna regret this or not.
but i just couldnt work with the type of person that im dealing with now.
dear lovely readers, please pray for me. so that i ll get new job.i just hate to think that i ll be jobless
Friday, February 8, 2013
as im writing this, tears keep falling down like rain.h is sleeping next to me. this week has been a rough one for me.be it work or personal.
i went for a check up with dr cantik today. we discussed on my hsg result. adhesion was spotted. she suggested tht i opt for laps procedure. sooner the better.perhaps nx week. im just so scared right now. i just had my hsg and still traumatized by the effect. drove back alone after the procedure as h's flight was only at 7.45pm. it was freakin sakit! at first it was just an uneasy feeling.mcm buat pap smear.and it turned out to be deymmm sakit. after tht i was left on tht katil besi alone for anor 30 freakin minutes. and i cried most of the time.
im having a hard time at work to add more to this ttc prob. im just so fragile lately.simple things could have touched my heart n makes me cry.
not quite sure about the laps procedure but im definitely scared.i wish i could be stronger