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Wednesday, January 26, 2011
lately, there are so many things tht i have to take care of. be it work or personal. kdg2 wa rase mau collapse pon ade. as for my work, i am quite frustrated with some of the decisions made by my superior. i didnt mean to say that i am wayy better than him , but in terms of things that have legal implication on the company, that is whre i have to voice out my opinion. unfortunately, it has not been considered. xpelah, for all i know, i have done my part. i understand that i am not a frontliner...cumalah seorang exec cabuk yg hanya boleh memberi pendapat tapi powerless in decision making. apa2 pun, tanggugjawab saya sudah terlangsai disitu.
lagi satu, i have mentioned in here before that my boss (my legal manager) has left the company. so there is only me running the legal dept now with my clerk. i ve tried my best for the past 4 months to make sure that everything runs smoothly. but as we are moving on with more states to restructure by this year, and more project in hands, i really, really in a dire need of a learned friend. at least, i can focus more on the restructuring things. unlike now, i have to take care of the restructuring exercise, tender, the projects in progress, dgn new sukuk issuance nye lagik..even tgh buat project aku sendiri dalam toilet pon aku still reply email boss. aku dh bg tau boss tht i need extra hands. dari bulan lepas aku dh habaq kat depa...tapi lama betul laa process dia nak interview..i am so frustrated about this.
kdg2 aku rase kerja yg aku wat dh takde quality since everything is guided with timeline. lepas tu masing2 sebok laa with their kpi...as for me, the hell with the kpi. kalau kerja siap on time and just for the sake of siap saja with no quality, mistakes here and there lah, then seploh kali mau amend, pastu bila dh keluar tender and discovered there is a discrepency or mistake in the tender doc and memasing mula laa menggelabah nak issue tender addendum..then all these shall only defeat the whole purpose of having kpi. if the kpi is assessed merely on the completion date, timeline and yg sewaktu dengannye..dimanakah letaknya qualiti dan mutu kerja seseorang??? pada aku, timeline shall only be the guideline, bukan nye basis to assess your kpi. kalau timeline is the major factor to assess your kpi, then buatlaa jambatan harga million2 dlm masa seminggu..bangga kat satu dunia boleh siap jambatan million2 in one week..sebulan pastu, jambatan crack, ko geget jari ajolah!
enuff about work. nnt org pikir aku ni kaki merungut..tp hati skarang adelah gusar juga. bid farewell to fiance tadi...he is now on his way back to melaka , driving, alone. and tengah demam teruk..demam campak plus tgh tak larat gile. i offered to send him back, tp dia xmo sbb esok aku kerja n nak masuk kampung dia tu agak jauh. konpem aku sesat bile blk. so dia nekad je nak drv. kalau dia dok kat kl neh, takde olang mau jaga lak. takkan aku nk g umah dia jaga dia? tak psl2 kawen free kang..muka lak tgh mcm permukaan bulan...tak gelemernya gambar kawen aku nnt...tapi lawak gak laa..dlm pada2 aku kesian kat dia tu...dh tua2 bangka cenggini baru nk kena demam campak. hahahahah...keji gile ok gelakkan tunang sendiri. tp wa feduli hape :P
then psl rumah lagi..td public bank call..dia bg tau loan dh approve. tp monyetnye, dia bg 85% drp pada discounted price. rumah tu kitorang cuma byr deposit 3%. pastu ade bumiputera discount 5%. pastu early bird discount 2%. so all together 10% laa kan. so the remaining 90% should be financed by the bank. tp public bank bunguks ni cuma nak offer 85% from tht 90% tu..tak ke bangang????mana kitorang nak cari lagi 100k to top that 5%? budus, idiot dan seangakatan hokay! ko nak suh aku pinjam ahlong ke? pastu leher aku kena kerat ngn pisau.mengong ke apa..
hamek ko...entry rojak baik punya arini..,.tu je kot.
ok.bai.
lagi satu, i have mentioned in here before that my boss (my legal manager) has left the company. so there is only me running the legal dept now with my clerk. i ve tried my best for the past 4 months to make sure that everything runs smoothly. but as we are moving on with more states to restructure by this year, and more project in hands, i really, really in a dire need of a learned friend. at least, i can focus more on the restructuring things. unlike now, i have to take care of the restructuring exercise, tender, the projects in progress, dgn new sukuk issuance nye lagik..even tgh buat project aku sendiri dalam toilet pon aku still reply email boss. aku dh bg tau boss tht i need extra hands. dari bulan lepas aku dh habaq kat depa...tapi lama betul laa process dia nak interview..i am so frustrated about this.
kdg2 aku rase kerja yg aku wat dh takde quality since everything is guided with timeline. lepas tu masing2 sebok laa with their kpi...as for me, the hell with the kpi. kalau kerja siap on time and just for the sake of siap saja with no quality, mistakes here and there lah, then seploh kali mau amend, pastu bila dh keluar tender and discovered there is a discrepency or mistake in the tender doc and memasing mula laa menggelabah nak issue tender addendum..then all these shall only defeat the whole purpose of having kpi. if the kpi is assessed merely on the completion date, timeline and yg sewaktu dengannye..dimanakah letaknya qualiti dan mutu kerja seseorang??? pada aku, timeline shall only be the guideline, bukan nye basis to assess your kpi. kalau timeline is the major factor to assess your kpi, then buatlaa jambatan harga million2 dlm masa seminggu..bangga kat satu dunia boleh siap jambatan million2 in one week..sebulan pastu, jambatan crack, ko geget jari ajolah!
enuff about work. nnt org pikir aku ni kaki merungut..tp hati skarang adelah gusar juga. bid farewell to fiance tadi...he is now on his way back to melaka , driving, alone. and tengah demam teruk..demam campak plus tgh tak larat gile. i offered to send him back, tp dia xmo sbb esok aku kerja n nak masuk kampung dia tu agak jauh. konpem aku sesat bile blk. so dia nekad je nak drv. kalau dia dok kat kl neh, takde olang mau jaga lak. takkan aku nk g umah dia jaga dia? tak psl2 kawen free kang..muka lak tgh mcm permukaan bulan...tak gelemernya gambar kawen aku nnt...tapi lawak gak laa..dlm pada2 aku kesian kat dia tu...dh tua2 bangka cenggini baru nk kena demam campak. hahahahah...keji gile ok gelakkan tunang sendiri. tp wa feduli hape :P
then psl rumah lagi..td public bank call..dia bg tau loan dh approve. tp monyetnye, dia bg 85% drp pada discounted price. rumah tu kitorang cuma byr deposit 3%. pastu ade bumiputera discount 5%. pastu early bird discount 2%. so all together 10% laa kan. so the remaining 90% should be financed by the bank. tp public bank bunguks ni cuma nak offer 85% from tht 90% tu..tak ke bangang????mana kitorang nak cari lagi 100k to top that 5%? budus, idiot dan seangakatan hokay! ko nak suh aku pinjam ahlong ke? pastu leher aku kena kerat ngn pisau.mengong ke apa..
hamek ko...entry rojak baik punya arini..,.tu je kot.
ok.bai.
Dari pagi meeting.rase nk pengsan,,,nk baldi..nak muntah dah niiiiiiiii...somebody helppppppp meeeeeeee... This tender evaluation com is killing me softly!!!!!
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Friday, January 21, 2011
"Kalau dapat, alhamdulillah. kalau tak dapat jugak, memang itu bukan rezeki kita. Allah lagi tahu psl ape nk jadi in future. so kita kena redha. we have tried to no avail. n now i want u to stop thinking about it and u just focus on our wedding"-encik tunang.
saye dan encik tunang telah jatuh hati dgn sebuah rumah ni.setelah bertolak, bercampur, berdarab dan berbahagi dan setelah diracun oleh encik tunang , saye bersetuju dgn cadangan H utk beli rumah tersebut. walau dalam hati saye agak sedeh sbb bajet utk kawen terpakse dikecilkan utk membayar deposit rumah tu. maka kami pun berusahalah memohon pinjaman dari ahlong berdaftar pihak bank.
setakat ni, dh 3 bank rejek application kami. sedih. dan tipulah kalau saye katakan saye tak nangis (sy mmg kaki nangis!). sbb sy sudah ada angan2 tersendiri ttg rumah idaman kami tu. contohnya, mahu menghantar anak ke sekolah cina disitu (rumah tersebut mmg dekat dgn sekolah cina. cuma 150m shj dr sekolah tersebut). jadi setiap kali hendak pergi kerja dan lalu didepan sekolah tersebut, sy pasti akan tersengih mcm kerang busuk.
alasan tipikal pihak bank adelah : KOMITMEN U TINGGI SGT.
itu adelah tipu ok! kalau dihitung2, komitmen kami berdua sgtlah minimal. kereta kami hnylah kereta buatan malaysia. kredit kad juge jarang diguna, kecuali utk bayar minyak.
alasan yg sepatutnya ialah : GAJI KORANG NI SIKIT SGT.
kalau itu alasannye, mungkin sounds logic to me. kalau gaji kecik or sikit, itu mmg diluar kawalan saye. kalau psl komitmen, remote kontrol adelah terletak di tgn saye. samada mahu komit ataupun tidak. tapi if it is about gaji, i wud say, itu adelah rezeki.dan bcakap isu rezeki ni, i shall concur with fiance., mungkin itu bukan rezeki kami.
tp berbanding dgn sebelum ini, mlm ini sy rase sedeh yg amat bangat. dalam mase yg sama jugak, cuba utk tidak rase sedeh. sy cuba utk tidak rase sedeh lagi bila memikirkan psl impian tak tercapai tu. tapi saye rase sedeh yg amat bangat when H told me that it breaks his heart too. all this while, i felt like i was the only one being streneous about this. sayalah yg pergi call bank. sayalah yg scan document2 utk diemel pd org bank. sayelah yg keep bugging the banker asking the result for our application. dan yg plg buat sy sedeh bangat, when H said "it is my dream too".
*tears*
sekarang ini, kami tgh tunggu result from maybank and bank islam. kalau dua2 ni pun reject juge, redha shj lah. apa2 pun, chances are still there. lets pray and hope for the gud news to arrive.
anda juge tlg doakan buat kami ya.
saye dan encik tunang telah jatuh hati dgn sebuah rumah ni.setelah bertolak, bercampur, berdarab dan berbahagi dan setelah diracun oleh encik tunang , saye bersetuju dgn cadangan H utk beli rumah tersebut. walau dalam hati saye agak sedeh sbb bajet utk kawen terpakse dikecilkan utk membayar deposit rumah tu. maka kami pun berusahalah memohon pinjaman dari
setakat ni, dh 3 bank rejek application kami. sedih. dan tipulah kalau saye katakan saye tak nangis (sy mmg kaki nangis!). sbb sy sudah ada angan2 tersendiri ttg rumah idaman kami tu. contohnya, mahu menghantar anak ke sekolah cina disitu (rumah tersebut mmg dekat dgn sekolah cina. cuma 150m shj dr sekolah tersebut). jadi setiap kali hendak pergi kerja dan lalu didepan sekolah tersebut, sy pasti akan tersengih mcm kerang busuk.
alasan tipikal pihak bank adelah : KOMITMEN U TINGGI SGT.
itu adelah tipu ok! kalau dihitung2, komitmen kami berdua sgtlah minimal. kereta kami hnylah kereta buatan malaysia. kredit kad juge jarang diguna, kecuali utk bayar minyak.
alasan yg sepatutnya ialah : GAJI KORANG NI SIKIT SGT.
kalau itu alasannye, mungkin sounds logic to me. kalau gaji kecik or sikit, itu mmg diluar kawalan saye. kalau psl komitmen, remote kontrol adelah terletak di tgn saye. samada mahu komit ataupun tidak. tapi if it is about gaji, i wud say, itu adelah rezeki.dan bcakap isu rezeki ni, i shall concur with fiance., mungkin itu bukan rezeki kami.
tp berbanding dgn sebelum ini, mlm ini sy rase sedeh yg amat bangat. dalam mase yg sama jugak, cuba utk tidak rase sedeh. sy cuba utk tidak rase sedeh lagi bila memikirkan psl impian tak tercapai tu. tapi saye rase sedeh yg amat bangat when H told me that it breaks his heart too. all this while, i felt like i was the only one being streneous about this. sayalah yg pergi call bank. sayalah yg scan document2 utk diemel pd org bank. sayelah yg keep bugging the banker asking the result for our application. dan yg plg buat sy sedeh bangat, when H said "it is my dream too".
*tears*
sekarang ini, kami tgh tunggu result from maybank and bank islam. kalau dua2 ni pun reject juge, redha shj lah. apa2 pun, chances are still there. lets pray and hope for the gud news to arrive.
anda juge tlg doakan buat kami ya.
Monday, January 17, 2011
wahai tuan punya blog, stop bloghopping skang jugak! tolong wat kerja plis? bengong lah ini minda takmau dgr arahan.
Mode:isnin yang layu
Mode:isnin yang layu
Friday, January 14, 2011
tenkiu bebeh...skarang saya sudah lega sedikit...eh bnyk sebnanye...perasaan aku skang?
mcm org kena yang dah seminggu kena sembelit, and baru sahaja melepas
lets focus more on the marriage, not the wedding!
tapi, saya masih lagi mahukan dreamwedding saya! i ve been dreaming about it since i was 3 hokay. mahu tahu?
sejak dr umur 3, sy mengimpikan baju pengantin bewarna pink!sekian
tak abes2 lagi oerang ana rafali kat fb laa..kat blog laa..kat paper laaa..pd aku, senang je nak tau sape juara lagu tu....tgk juri laa beb..
klu juri mnasir, taste mnasir mcm mana...of kos lagu shahir keBAHGIAN dlm perpisahan tu x jd juara..lagu hafiz ke..mmg xkan menang laa..
tp kalau manan ngah jd ketua juri, or azmeer, maybe lagu2 cm lagu adira aku ada kamu tu menang,,or lagu faizal tahir menang..pd aku, azmer n manan ngah nye music mmg sedap...lirik biasa2 laa..stok lagu jiwang..ape ko boleh lirikkan sgt aite?>but mnasir nye testt mmg superb..lagu2 yg dia wat mmg power. be it the lyrics or the musics..arrangement music mmg dasat..
to me, tolong ingt kan aku tu lirik mmg sedap.to music dia sgt common..nothings special pon.nk kata catchy mcm lagu kalau berpacaran, tak juge...nk kata music strong, lagu adira tu lagi best musi dia..plus singer mmg power..combination mantop..
maybe, kalau org lain nyanyi lagu tlg ingtkan aku ni ngn style lain, vocal yg lagi mantop, maybe (aku kata maybe) lAGU jadi lebih sedap..pendek kata, juara lagu ni enala ade combination yg superb..the music, lyrics, and vocal. music shud come first..sbb nama pun juara lagu..org dgr lagu, bukan baca lirik!
kalau korang dgr lagu kris dayanti, mencintaimu tu..lirik dia sempoi je..straight to the point.tapi music very powderful..itu yg buatkan lagu u jadi lagu evergreen. kalau ko nk lirik yg putis, mantop gile..baik pegi masuk pertandingan puisi je..hahahhaha
lagi satu aku rase laaa...org2 mcm ana rafali ni, ko berbakat tulis lirik..so just stick to it. ko tulis lirik, pastu bg kat org ain nyanyi...sebab suara kau tak sedap!kalau kau bg lagu tlg ingt kan aku tu kat org lain, n lagu tu jd juar, aku rase takde org nk pertikan kot..mcm ajai laa...dia wat music boleh tahan best. lirik tak berapa nk best laa..vocal hancai..mula2 dulu dia pnah laa try2 nk jd penyamyi..tp aku rase dia dh sedar yg sore dia mmg tak best..or maybe dh ade org yg tolong ingt kan dia betapa hampehnya vocal dia utk jd penyanyi..
so ana rafali, i wish u all the best in the industry...ko mmg ade bakat sebagai penulis lirik.maybe ko leh jd oengganti arwh loloq..arwah loloq pon x de nak nyanyi lag yg dia tulis sebab pada aku dia hormatkan penyanyi yg ade,.dan dia tahu penyanyi2 yg ade tu lebih tahu cemana nk menyanyi n boleh bantu menyedapkan lagi lagu yg ditulis tu.
nota kaki:
1.dah le mg banyak penyanyi sampah kat msia ni..so tolong le jgn tambahkan lagi penyanyi sampah yg ade ye ana rafali.
2.this is a fair comment from me. i write whatever i think good for the industry without trying to defame anyone.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
"Ya Allah, tidak ada kemudahan kecuali sesuatu yang Engkau permudahkan, Engkau menjadikan kedukaan itu mudah sekiranya Engkau kehendaki"
ini aje yg aku mampu buat sekarang...utk mase depan, impian dan harapan aku+encik tunang.tolong doakan aku ye kawan2 *tears*
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
encik fotografer sy sudah lama bg gambar2 tunang saye. tapi saye yg mls..memandangkan arini sy mc...maka saye rajenkan lah diri utk upload di blog ini..nak ikutkan ati mmg mls...tapi bile pk2 blk....i dont write journal anymore..since i met encik tunang..hahah..bunguks kan..dgn ex bf sy yg dulu...penuh nama2 mereka dlm diary saye...ye..ye..saye mmg seorang penulis diary..sampai laa sy jumpe encik tunang, i ve stopped that habit..dunno y..didnt plan to stop writing prvt journals..but it just happened..makanya..nama encik tunang hanya tertulis dalam diari hatiku sahaja..uh uh.....jiwang hokay!
so i ve selected few piccas to upload here..for future memories and for my future kids utk baca2 n gelakkan mommy dia...tp saye rase kelakar lah bila tgk gamba saye tunang..kenapa gambar saye tak ayu mcm gambar org lain bertunang? ishh..i have less than a year to learn how to pose beautiful as a bride..skang gak nk g google..so here we go..
so i ve selected few piccas to upload here..for future memories and for my future kids utk baca2 n gelakkan mommy dia...tp saye rase kelakar lah bila tgk gamba saye tunang..kenapa gambar saye tak ayu mcm gambar org lain bertunang? ishh..i have less than a year to learn how to pose beautiful as a bride..skang gak nk g google..so here we go..
me and his familiy
me and my wacko frens
mama saye!!!tapi mama saye adelah poyo...mama kata dia takut org tersalah sarung cincin sbb dia pon pkai baju pink..i was like...poyooooooooooooooooooooo la mama nehhhhh
saye dan keluarge saye
my faithful bodyguards..taikos
saye dan incik tunang :)
nenek saye..dlm semua gamba nenek asik nangis je..alhamdulillah nenek panjang umur dpt tgk saye bertunang...sy sgt rapat dgn nenek.dari sejak lahir smp ke umur 7 tahun, sy membesar dgn nenek.anyway, i picked to wear pink bcos when i was a lil kid, nenek told me tht she wanted me to wear pink on my wedding day..tapi saye takut nenek x sempat tgk saye kawen.dats y i wore pink on my e-day.doakan nenek saye panjang umur dan sihat2 sahaja ye..
mak encik tunang...merangkap bakal ibu mertuaku..ehem..ehem...
when the two mommas met :)
pipi saye mcm kueh dorayaki kan?
kawan2 yg sudi hadir..kawan2 dr sejak zaman merempits di uia..hehehehe
cousin sy ckp, encik tunang mcm rhoma irama..bile sy gugel2..rhoma irama adelah penyanyi dangdut indon! hahahahah
saye dan anak2 sedare encik tunang...mcm family portrait kan? insyaallah dlm 3-4 tahun akan dtg, we ll have our own family portrait with our own kids :)
Thursday, January 6, 2011
aku tgh apply loan utk rumah.hny 2 bank je yg blh bg loan for this projek.sbb rumah ni utk bumi je. some more malay reserved land. so 2 bank bunguks tu adelah maybank dan cimb. yg maybank ni aku dh submit...dh 2 minggu process application aku, tetiba org maybnk tu ckp they have capped amount for this project...diaorang nye allocation dh fully utilised! bangang hokay????? why la after 2 weeks baru ko nak bag tau?
yg cimb lak, bangang nye, reason for rejection was due to insuffiency of credit balance dlm akaun gaji aku every month. fyi, gaji aku n en tunang masuk kat akaun maybank..kitorg ni jenis, dpt je gaji, lps tolak bil itu ini, saving masuk asb, yg tgl kat maybank tu duit utk mencekik dan behoyeh2 je..of kos laa ciput je...takkan laa aku nk mencekik smp 3k sorang sebulan..mase aku bli umah yg mule2 dulu wat loan ngn ocbc, takde lak dia tgk credit balance aku kat akaun gaji...asalkan current komitmen aku ngn gaji aku kurang drp brapa ntah..so lepas laa..aku pon tak pnh paham cemana diorg kire bende2 ni..bukan kje aku..klu kje aku utk kire, baik aku je kje ngn bank tu...
mmg cibai laa cimb n maybank ni..aku sakit jiwa ok..tau laa korang nye income bnyk dr investment..tp jgn blagak nak mamps!
Monday, January 3, 2011
ade kawan2 aku bagi suggestion...since im getting married this year...(yes you heard me.hihihih.im getting married this year.insyaallah), so frens suggested me to update on my wed preps. to be honest with u guys, i am totally green with envy reading all those bride2be blogs. unfortunately, i have started with any preps so far..even so in future, i dont think i ll be updating the details in my blog..simply bcos i am such a lazy bum! hahahah
but to think of it back, it wud be very sweet if i put on some of the details in here..so in 20 or 30 yrs from now, whilst having my teh tarik (im not into coffee or caffeinated drinks) with hubby and my kids, we can laugh together. kids will have this to say "mum was cool! and pretty as ever".. hubby will have this to say. "wait until her entry where she's turned into a bridezilla"...so how cool is tht?
maybe, (MAYBE means 50-50), i ll start with simple entry like this one.heheheheh
so here we go peeps..i am left with 10 months (to conclude all the preps), 25kg (to shed off) , and 30k (to save it for the W-damn, this is the hardest!) till my wedding day!
may the force be with me!
we grew up together since i stayed with nenek till i was 7. me, hambali, hanafi and shafie were very close then. hambali's the eldest, followed by me, hanafi and shafie (the youngest). we played football together..we turned nenek's house to a ski place ( tabur bedak yg tong biru tu satu rumah and feeling main ski)..then kena marah dgn nenek..bedah katak bawah rumah sama2..terjun longkang sama2..memang nakal kan? so now u can understand why i turned to be not so fine lady yg stock graceful n lemah gemalai tu. it was all bcos of them..
there was one time when i got really angry at hanafi (among the three, dia yg plg nakal nak mampos)..so aku pegi ambik pinggan kaca kat dapor nenek and ketuk kepala dia...hehehe ganas kan? lepas tu bdarah kepala dia n kena jahit. i guess the scar is still there. i am cowieeeeeeee...
ada skali tu, nenek adelah sgt marah dkt hanafi cos he did/said something which i coudnt remember what exactly..tapi time tu sbb nenek marah sgt, so nenek ikat dia dekat pokok yang ade kerengga. nenek aku mmg garang ok! so u can tell mana aku dpt kegarangan ini la kannnnnnn????
Though the days of playing bedah katak and football together is over, I still hold these memories deep within my heart. My cousin is a fine and grown man now, and last saturday, he married his high school sweetheart.
so cousin and wifey, i wish u all the joy and happiness in this world.
saye dan pengantin...yg lelaki baju ijau dan muke garang itu adelah tunang saye :P (buat pertama kalinya diupload dlm blog)
there was one time when i got really angry at hanafi (among the three, dia yg plg nakal nak mampos)..so aku pegi ambik pinggan kaca kat dapor nenek and ketuk kepala dia...hehehe ganas kan? lepas tu bdarah kepala dia n kena jahit. i guess the scar is still there. i am cowieeeeeeee...
ada skali tu, nenek adelah sgt marah dkt hanafi cos he did/said something which i coudnt remember what exactly..tapi time tu sbb nenek marah sgt, so nenek ikat dia dekat pokok yang ade kerengga. nenek aku mmg garang ok! so u can tell mana aku dpt kegarangan ini la kannnnnnn????
Though the days of playing bedah katak and football together is over, I still hold these memories deep within my heart. My cousin is a fine and grown man now, and last saturday, he married his high school sweetheart.
so cousin and wifey, i wish u all the joy and happiness in this world.
~congratulations, both of you~
hanafi and marisaa
hanafi and marisaa
saye dan pengantin...yg lelaki baju ijau dan muke garang itu adelah tunang saye :P (buat pertama kalinya diupload dlm blog);;
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